S.O.S. please pray....

please pray for me... i cant say whats went on. and no one knows. accept my mother. and she only gave me the hugest dissapproving look ive ever seen... personally, i'd rather have someone be mad at me, then be dissappointed in me.. and right now.. both my parents are dissappointed in me... and it hurts...

Please Pray for me...
1.) i need to forgive someone.... im finding it hard because this person cant even appologize for what they did to me... and they know what they did... a simple "im sorry" is all i need.. but he cant even do that.

2.) i need to forgive myself.. i feel really defeated right now.. and i want to give up.. im blaming myself for whats happened... and ive never felt so "not in control" of a situation in my life...

3.) i cant concentrate on school and studies.. im only thinking about "this".. im ignoring friends and family and it hurts..

4.) please pray that i will be able to trust again...

5.) and mostly, pray that i will seek God right now... im having a terrible time just resting in Him and seeking Him about "this".. please pray that i will accept Christs forgiveness... and not hide from him... i know that he wants to embrace me and hold me in this time.. but i feel so guilty and i feel like i shouldnt be forgiven..

thank you.



p.s
theres no doubt in my mind that there is a spiritual attack going on in my room at this moment... please please pray...