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i can never fall asleep before you. no matter how hard i try. i need to listen to you fall asleep first. then once your asleep. its okay for me to. i like listening to you fall asleep though. its one of my favorite things to do with you.

i know im always safe with you too. that, when i wake up at 2:13am. you'll be beside me. most likely with your arm draped across me. or your head on my chest. its comforting. and i like that about you. even when im sleeping. you show me how much you care.

i like that your the one of the only ones who doesnt roll your eyes at me when im trying so hard to explain something that i really believe in. you let me talk. and you listen. and you ask questions. you really care. even if you dont.. you make it seem like you do. which means so much to me. i love that about you.

i love that you have this ability to make me laugh at myself. i hate laughing at myself. but when you laugh me. and i cant help but laugh at me too. your helping me grow and change into a beautiful more loving woman. and i thank you for that.

mom told me the other day, that the reason i like you so much is because this is the first relationship ive been in that i am being myself. and i guess thats true. because your the only person who's seen me in sweat pants with no make up on. you've seen me in glasses and contacts. with curly hair and straight hair. messy hair.. and messier hair. who ive woken up beside and didnt feel this need to run and get ready fast. you've watched me cry. you've seen me at my worst. and yet you still keep coming around. your amazing to me. you see the real me. which is someone hardly anyone gets to see.

you've helped me become who i am today. you've challeneged my beliefs. my thoughts. my morals. you've taught me new meanings to things. and helped me to be more open minded about life in general. i swear. the best thing i ever did was ask for your number that day. i took a chance. i thought you'd say no. but you didnt.

you've helped me learn to trust again. and to believe again. you've done so much for me. you mean the world and more to me. and i'd be so lost with out you. im trying hard not to question everything. and to let life happen, as it happens. you know how hard that is for me. but im trying.

thank you. for being who you are. please dont ever change, or ever leave my side okay?