shewillbe;;

dear boyfriend.
i want you to know,
that ive been hurt many times.
many guys have came into my life,
only to walk away leaving me alone.
i dont want to be hurt again.
im trusting you.
i want you to know,
that i will value you so much more..
if we dont have sex.
if we wait.
because then i will know,
that you are in this for me..
and not just my body.
theres years and years ahead to have sex,
and we can spent time getting to know each other now.
please know that i will get angry.
and my feelings will get hurt.
i will say things i dont mean,
and do things to try and push you away.
but if/when you stay by my side..
i'll know you really love me.
i love the way you look at me..
like im the most important girl.
i hope you always look at me that way.
i hope your hand will always find mine.
and i hope you'll always laugh at my stupid remarks.
i want to get to know you more.
and i hope that you'll stay up till 3am with me..
and we''ll talk about everything.
i hope that you'll look past my dark past.
and i mostly hope you wont judge for me..
for the men who've walked all over me.
i hope i'll always make you smile when i walk into a room.
and that you'll let me fall asleep on your shoulder.
i hope you'll send me cute texts that make me smile.
and tell me that you think im cute..
even when i strongly disagree.
i hope you'll love my family as much as i do.
and i hope its okay that i love yours too.
please promise me though,
that if you dont me around..
you'll tell me.
that if your tempted by someone else..
you'll tell me before you cheat.
that you wont keep anything from me.
please dont ever keep anything from me.
no secrets.
boyfriend.
i mostly hope that we'll be happy together.
that someday we'll grow together and we'll become one,
rather than two.
boyfriend.
im trusting you. im giving you my heart.
please dont break it.