promises.

..i made him promise me something the other night..
i said...
"promise me that when you dont see me in your future... you know.. the long run.. that you tell me.. because.. i dont want to be in a meaningless relationship.. not that it would be a waste of time.. but.. if you know im not the one.. tell me.. please dont.. try and stick it out.. my feelings would hurt for a little while.. but i'd thank you in the long run"

he promised. but he also told me something else...
he said..
"youre so different from any other girl. i dont question our relationship at all... or why im with you.. its like.. its meant to be.. ive never found myself thinking of someone, and asking myself, "i wonder what shes doing now", or.. "what is she thinking at this exsact moment".. you know.."

i smiled my crookedest smile.. i didnt tell him.. but i find myself thinking the exsact same thing..

i think that this time im doing something right. though, i dont know what it is yet. i know that he sees me for me. because hes seen me first thing in the morning with no make-up, wild messy hair.. and rancid morning breath...(SICK !! i know right) *shrugs*.. theres something there.. and this time long term commitment doesnt scare me.