shewillbe;;

no one could possibly know what shes going through.
at one point she set her standards so high.
she wanted the best.
because she knew she deserved the best.
tall. dark. and handsome. with an educaton.
strong arms. with a kind heart.
big truck. with big dreams. similar to her own.
no smoking. no drinking. no drugs.
she'd never approve of any of those.
she'd never be with someone who did those things
because bad habits die hard.
she knows this first hand.
for her addiction is something not many struggle with.
her addiction. her craving. her struggle.
giving in to sexual temptation
sex without love.
giving away her body just to be able to feel important.
to feel "loved".
but she learned.
she realized that "love" isnt love.
its not the love she wanted.
she gave up her habits and her old ways.
she started to set her standards high.
because she knew she deserved the best.
she'd wait untill the right one came along.
because she knew there was someone perfect for her.
she'd wait for "mr. right" instead of "mr. right now"
but what happened?!
when did she lower her standards?!
when did her values and morals change.
she knows hes a good guy.
theres no doubt he loves her.
and he'd bring her back the moon if she asked for it.
but is this really what she wants.
she cant help but wonder if theres something better.
someone better.
she cant help but wonder if shes making the right choices.
she doesnt regret being his girlfriend.
she just wonders if its the right time.
and if maybe her "mr. right" is still out there.
still going to uni.
still studying and learning.
still growing as a person.
shes afraid shes going to miss out on something.
but at the same time shes afraid shes going to loose something.