shewillbe;;

coping with my depression this past month or so hasnt been easy.
im sorry if youve read this and thought i was just attention seeking.
thats definately not the case.
i have been throwing up.
and i havent been sleeping.
i ripped off my gel nails.(do not try that at home.)
my family doctor has had me on effexor for the past three years.
for three years the effexor did nothing.
i went to a walk in medi-clinic with my mom since i had been suicidal for two months.
the doctor at the clinic gave me a referal to a "shrink"
and then i was very lucky to get in the next day..
(the waiting list was untill july 10th)
anyways. my shrink, psychiatrist, is dr. patouloua.
( i spelt that wrong)
he diagnosed me with not only depression,
but a social anxiety disease.
i am now on two different medications.
and one sleeping pill for two weeks.
(at night my mind cant stop working)
anyways.
i have continued to make myself throw up..
even though the nauseous feeling isnt as bad.
i am starting to feel better.
and that is what counts.