love strong. <3 .

i fell for you quickly.
almost too fast.
but i knew it was right.
i somehow knew.
i knew that you were put in my life...
introduced to me, for a reason.
and though we didnt become close right away,
i think that everything happened as it was supossed too.
in time.
in time.
in time.
when we were both ready,
both ready to make a change.
both ready to love.
and both ready to be loved in return.

fear is something that i deal with on a regular basis.
anxiety.
not being good enough.
pretty enough.
smart enough.
witty enough.
im terrified.
im terrified of opening up.
and then being let down.
being hurt.
scarred.
broken.
hurt.
im scared of letting people in.
because each time i do.
they leave. they run. fast.
but something is different this time.
i dont know what it is.
i honestly dont.
but i can just feel it.

i feel it in the way you say my name.
the way you look into my eyes.
the way you ask me whats wrong.
the way you hold my hand.
and the way you protect me.
the way you believe in me.
the way you'd stop something so terrible.
just for me.

im paranoid.
im scared.
and im terrified.
im afraid of being left.
and the easiest way to avoid that fear.
is to be alone.
a single.
one.
alone.
because if im alone.
and i only have myself.
then there is no one to hurt me.
no one to use me.
no one to take what they want.
no one to chew me up. spit me out.
throw me under the bus.
no one to leave me.
so for the longest time.
ive gotten used to the idea of being alone.

but then you come along.
theres something about you.
the way you look into my eyes.
and listen when i speak.
you hear my words.
you hear my words.
you hear my words.
and your beautiful.
so beautiful.
i get lost in your eyes.
and stare at your lips.
and everything. it all pieces together.
theres something about you.
like you make me make sense.
you make me want to know more.
want to learn more.

you took my worst pain.
what most people ignore.
what most people cringe at.
what most people label as "broken"...
i told you what happened to me.
and you loved me just the same.
you didnt look at me any differently.
you didnt look at me like i was broken.
you didnt stop calling me.
you didnt tell me i deserved it.
you held my hand.
you held me up.
you held me.
when no one else had.