shewillbe;;

I went to church today. For the first time in 3 years. My heart has been broken over and over ever since I admitted I was a lesbian. Today, I bowed my head and prayed. I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I don't want to allow myself to hurt or to be hurt. I realized though that it is my fault for allowing all this to happen. I won't allow that anymore. Today I decided that I'm done with all that. I deserve my happily ever after. And i'll wait for that. No more happily "dating".