update.

Yesterday I had my appt at the specialists office for my cysts. It went well I guess. My gyno is young, and she is a woman which is ALOT better than having a man for a doctor in my eyes. She was very understanding and helpful and explained alot of what "could be" happening inside my body.

Although everything is normal, we still dont know why I am not menstruating. Its been almost a year. We talked about the different possibilities, none of which scared me. She did an internal exam. (I really hate these. Ive had four since Jan 1st and I have a feeling with more upcoming appt's they wont be my last. Why do I hate them? They hurt. ALOT. And they bring back terrible flashbacks and night mares that I dont want to relive.) But she had to do an internal exam and she noticed that I was "tender" in a spot I shouldnt have been. She didnt say why or why not that was, but I am booked in for an ultrasound March 2nd. And then another one in April. Plus I go back and see her middle of March. Ugh. The process seems so long and strenuous. The good thing is that she is hoping I WONT need surgery to remove the cysts. But agian only time will tell. (She even told me the technical size of the cysts and where they were
located.. what an amazing Doctor.. my family doctor wouldnt even say BOO about it)

We talked about other things too, as I had many questions about this whole situation and she really brought clarity to the whole thing. Again. Shes a great doctor.
She sent me home with a prescription for 10 pills. The reason of the pills is to try and start a period. Whether or they work is beyond me. My doctor wasnt sure if they would work or not. She also sent me for CRAZY amounts of blood work. The most blood theyve ever taken! And of course I had to piss in a cup. These tests are all for my hormone levels to see whats out of wack. The doctor was pretty certain she knew what was wrong, but she had to wait for the test results first. Then she thinks I'll be on a hormone replacement for a little bit.
But Im happy that I went and Im happy I am starting to get answers.

On another note. I came out at work. It went surprisingly well. And I am glad that I did it. The ladies I work with are all my moms age. So they are older. I am one of the youngest on my floor. They said that they wouldnt have even guessed. And that they are happy I told them. They of course said they want me to be happy. Which I assured them I am.

My room mate is frustrating me beyond belief. I have been a vegetarian since the end of Dec(Its going well. I dont crave beef as much as I thought I would. I still eat fish, and chicken though). I also am trying to eat organic. I buy soy milk, and the good bread with the seeds in it. Also I bought some special soy brick cheese, and special yogourt and what not. Anyways. She keeps eating my food. Its really getting on my last nerve.Not to mention she doesnt clean up after herself. Shes messy as hell and she cant take a hint.
Ugh. She wanted to live here through the summer but Im going to tell her once school is done, she has to find a new place to live. Ive never had a room mate before. Ive only lived with boyfriends. Which is WAY different than living with a complete stranger. :( So frustrating.
I do believe everything happens for a reason, and then in time things work out the way they are saposed to be. So heres to waiting.