uuupppppdate.

ugh.
something that pisses me off lately.
im not "out" to EVERYONE at work.
the majority yes. but not EVERYONE.

i work with 98% women.

theres a man who works in a different department.
who recently has taken an interest in me.
hes double my age. single. never been married.
and hes a grumpy old man to everyone.... except to me.
he started asking around.
and eventually he was finding things out about me.

someone thought it would be great to give him my phone number.
so hes started calling me.
and going out of his way to find to me when im at work.
he comes up and starts conversations.
and he gives me special treats... cookies and peices of cake.. ice cream and such..
(all i throw in the garbage after he leaves)
*gags*

today in the staff room.
one lady. started asking me what my plans were for the weekend.
i said i didnt have any plans. just the usual. working out. and seeing friends.
"why dont you look for love? it is valentines day on sunday after all" she says.
"i dont need to look for love. i am content where i am" i replied.
and then she started singing some random love song i had never heard.
"well a certain someone.. told me that they called you twice last night..." she says.
i ignored her. and then Jill called. (saved by my girlfriend)

anyways. ive done well at avoiding this mans phone calls.
and i am not interested. (obviously)
for two reasons.
a.) i have a girlfriend.
b.) i DONT LIKE MEN.

so anyways.
my phone just started ringing. it was him.
i ignored the call.
i think that tomorrow i will come out fully at work.
i dont know how. and i dont know how people will react.
but i think its the only way to get the point across.
obviously saying Im not interested doesnt help.

the man is gone on holidays after today. thank goodness.
i saw him creeping behind the trees when i was walking to my car.
he was watching me. it scared the shit out of me.
men seriously creep me out.
maybe because ive been molested as a child. and raped.
theres just something about men. *shudders*
anyway.
i think coming out at work to the few people who dont already know needs to be done.