shewillbe;;

Hi!!!
So basically the past few days Ive just been prepping for surgery. Mentally and emotionally. Ive had a few "cry baby" days. Where I just want to cry. Mostly because Im scared of what the final outcome will be. A hysterectomy. Im seriously hoping its just the right ovary and fallopian tube though. *fingers crossed*.
Today has been clear fluids only. At my pre-op a few days ago the nurse gave me two laxatives that I was saposed to take. I was refusing to take them. Because I didnt want to. And because I can move my bowels just fine on my own. Anyways.. I know its gross. And up untill 2am I wasnt going to take them. But I had a phone call with my girlfriend.. and she pulled the "if you loved me you'd do this" blah blah blah. So I took them.
The reason I needed to take them is because I need my ENTIRE bowel to be emptied because the ovaries are kind of close to the bowel, and she could puncture the bowel if it was full.. so gross.. sorry again.
So anyways. Because I love my girlfriend!.... I took the first laxative at noon. It was a powder that I mixed with water. No big deal. Nothing happened untill 4pm... when I saposed to take the second one.. Well.. I will spare you details.. But describe it in two words.. Liquid explosion!!! Times a million!!
Im currently working on the second laxative drink. Im having a harder time choking it down. Maybe because I know what the outcome will be. Oh well.
Tomorrows the big day. I'll blog in the morning before surgery. And let you know how terrified I am!! :D
Cheers!!